I've spent the last eight and a half years as a stay-at-home mom, and for the majority of that time, my main focus has been caring for my sons. Having children is the one thing I looked forward to my entire life. I have loved having my boys home with me, and I am so grateful for the opportunity I've had to be "just a mom" for their earliest years.
However, having a second grader and a pre-kindergartener is much, MUCH different than having a three year old and a newborn. My boys still need me - or at least that's what I tell myself to feel better - but they don't need me quite as much as they did when they were younger. From pouring their own milk to taking showers instead of baths, their independence is increasing every day. Honestly, I lost a little sense of who I am during those crazy, baby-raising years, and now that the baby days are behind us, I feel a little at loose ends. I don't feel ready to give up that "SAHM" status, but if I am being truthful, I know that there is only so long I can hang on to it.
It's a tough time to navigate, these years when your children are not babies but are not nearly grown up, either. I'm finding it a challenge, but it's one I've waited my whole life to take on. I know things will work out...the hard part is just finding the faith to trust that they will.
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